I started out *****y. Picked a morning fight with my BF then practically kicked him ou to go hang at a friends for a few hours. Made the mistake of texting my sister mid afternoon after trying two calming baths with peppermint essential oil [ no effect still hate veryone especially me] Told her abut how ****** I feel. She only sort of cares since she has BPD too. Plus I suck at being there for her.
Pointed me in the direction of a cool site. Feel slightly better. Realized due to being distracted by self loathing and irritation I only smoked a few cigs today instead of a whole pack...horray?!