Thread: Angry at my T
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Old Jan 24, 2013, 10:39 PM
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Originally Posted by TheRealFDeal View Post
Saw my T today. Only two more sessions to go before termination. I'm still so angry. I tried to communicate my anger to him today, both at my situation and at him, and it seems like he just keeps ignoring it. Is this a therapeutic tactic? If so, it's not working, it just makes me madder. He did, in a fashion, communicate that my anger is keeping me stuck, but this I already know. What I don't know is how to get past it if I can't even talk about it. Ugh. Words fail.

I feel like the whole world is working against me. I also know that this is my BPD talking. And I feel helpless. Also BPD, right? It all comes back to that, right? We know it but we can't control it.

Anybody having any luck beating this thing?
Maybe he is detaching from you now; that could be the way he is handling the situation, but I wish he would not ignore how you are feeling. I can imagine how that would make you feel. Worse.

I think that you should be able to express your feelings about his terminating without being invalidated. I feel like often when people say that my feelings keep me stuck, they are not really validating my experiences or they just don't have room to. But that does not invalidate my experience!
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Thanks for this!
TheRealFDeal