It seems like I've felt down so much that I would not know how to handle being happy. I feel very content with what I have in my life but it seems like when comes to the social aspect of my life, I am miserable. I know that people cannot always make life better for me, but it does help when to have nice people in life.

Around me it seems like all the people that I know have good friends and family. I feel like I'm the only one that has neither. Lately it has been so difficult for me to make and keep friends. Also my family is just not connected. We live far apart and we have very little meaningful contact with each other.

I only have one friend and he's someone I'm not crazy about. I would like to get rid of him if I could. He makes me cringe more than he makes me feel good about myself.

I just read on another site of a guy who made a comment that lonely people tend to attract bad quality people and psychos. I feel like I'm lonely and bad people are drawn to me. I find that very depressing.

There are people at my job that say that I seem like a very happy person.
They really don't know me very well. A couple of people that know me very well would not think that. I may appear to be very happy to most people at where I work, but it's very much an act. Also, I feel like my job requires that or I would get let go.