Sam2: Yeah, school is a stressor, and it is a lot of pressure. But it's a pressure I'm used to and know how to handle. It's nice to hear you understand about losing people though. It's been a running theme the last 4-5 years. As one of my friends put it once, while I am not the cause of drama I seem to be surrounded by it. I don't know why that is, but it's ruined friendships. I'm not really looking for a relationship right now, beyond friends. School is time consuming, and I've got my hands full with handling that on top of everything else. But that completely makes sense, and it's something I've given plenty of thought to. If you don't know who you are or aren't in a good state of mine, you can't contribute well to a relationship. I find it a bit disturbing that so many people I have met in the past few years only know me at my worst. As for the rest, I'll consider what you said. I do think I need to find a different counselor though, I discussed it with the couple people who know what's going on and they agree that I would benefit from a switch. Thanks for taking the time to reply.

genetic: I have never heard of them, but I'll take a look when I have a moment. Personally, I think a lot can be gained from changing one's focus from the self to focusing on the needs of others. Unfortunately I get trapped in my own head and can't think about anything else. I think this is what you mean by looking inward, evaluating what is going on. I always found journaling to be a good outlet for that and a good way to talk myself through and understand what's going on. I really need to be more consistent though. School has become an excuse, that I'm too tired to do things I know would be beneficial in the long run. Sometimes it's just hard to make yourself do something you know will help. Almost like you don't want it, you're so comfortable with how things have become. Thanks for your input.