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Originally Posted by XAndromedaX
The loneliness that is self imposed. Everyone WANTS to like me but I never let ANYONE very close. I fear for their safety because I am SO good at emotionally destroying anyone who seems to be challenging me.
And the guilt. The self fulfilling propechy of thinking everything is my fault because I lash out and therefore lashing out as a result of my utter helplessness.
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I agree with this wholeheartedly. I am dealing with this right now. It's like there are two levels of reality with me: actual reality--what is really happening, and my reality--my version of what is really happening. And I can sort of see them both, but the only thing that I can actually
believe is my reality. If that makes any sense.