Yeap. I feel like my reality is split even more....I have reality. Then I have how I interpret reality when I'm hurt or feel impending hurt [ sooo any conforntational situation or situastion that I imagine may become conforntational] which is either an inflated sense of self love where I launch into amazingly wicked self centered speeches to make whoever feel like nothing OR an inflated sense of self loathing where I apologize my face off and try and do nice things obsessively for whoever upset me, real or imagined.