I did it. i cut. i lost. and i was not satisfired. i also stbbed myself with a needle four times and now I have bad bruises that i am very embarressed about on my arms and legs. and although it bleed like i liked i was not happy and it did not make me feel better like it normally does. i do not want to cut anymore. i hate myself so so much for it. now i have to hid the scars for a while more until they heal... i still have these tough emotions i don't know what to do with... i can't cut, so what do i do?