I seek help every time I find the threat gets bad enough because i have two sons depending on me. One of them will be leaving home soon and when they leave, my purpose for existing might go with them. This will be a big challenge for me. When I felt really bad, I did not want to abandon them, so I sought help. I knew somebody depended on me. Now, I am not so sure. Seeking help signifies we have a reason beyond ourselves to be stronger and find answers. I have to find another reason, beyond myself for continuing to exist.