When I found out Jason was hooked on pain killers and went to rehab and then found out he turned to Heroin it was incredibly stressful. Worrying about him became the focus of my life. Now that he is dead I keep saying to myself I'll worry and be stressed out all the time if I could just have him back. It is a horrible situation to be in.

Having a child that has a problem with drugs is extremely stressful add bipolar to that and well .... I don't know what to say but I feel for you.