Greetings everyone, before I get to my problem, if I may, I would like to say a few words..... I have spent the last 6 years exhausting just about any and all avenues out there to try to figure out how to make my life work living with a terrible mental illness such as bipolar, aka manic depression.


My illness is a little different from Bipolar 1, or Bipolar 2 however. While those are just as equally devastating in their own right. I have spent thousands of hours not only researching career options that best fit someone with this illness, but also each aspect, or level, of this illness.


One such aspect of this illness is called Ultradian Cycling Bipolar. A deeper level of whats known as Rapid Cycling Bipolar. If memory serves me correctly, there are two other levels (don't quote me on this, as im not really here to prove what bipolar is, or is not) beyond Rapid Cycling. Ultradian being one of them.


Ultradian Cycling, unlike Rapid Cycling Bipolar – which a persons moods can swing (if memory serves, and again please don't quote me here) about 4 times in a year. Where as Ultradian Cycling, a person moods can swing several times in one day.



Which is what I have myself. I am writing this on the account im trying to find a legitimate career that will work well with someone with Ultradian Cycling Bipolar. I have been homeless a number of times due to this illness. Luckily now I do have a job. Yet, It is a dead end job though, and is going no where. Not to mention if my illness spikes on the job? Its bye bye job. Which I've lost a few job's due to that very same thing in the past.


Again, I am not here in an attempt to have anyone else try to figure my life out for me, as it has been said in other forums and such that I have posted am only asking for advice on what type or career, or vocation would be best suited for someone with my type of condition. It has also been said in the past that one shouldn't limit themselves due to having such an illness. Which is well said, however, not everyone is the same. And, this illness, regardless which aspect of it one may have, effects everyone differently. Or, that I should attempt to go to Vocational Rehabilitation. Yet, with what ive read on this, they are only interested in getting you into work. Not really caring about whether or not its a good fit, or if your able to keep the job


So while a celebrity may very well be bipolar, and able to make millions of dollars being an actor. I will say I am not able to do this myself. I am limited by this illness! As I cannot be around people for very long periods of time. I've also been diagnosed with Psychotic tendencies (in regards to hurting myself) PTSD, and Social Phobia. So being in a public atmosphere is somewhat conducive in my case.


The last counselor I went to see, I went mainly seeking his help in an attempt to help me find some type of career in which I could do within my ability to work. However, he limited me to more dead end jobs. A job is a job all the same. However, I view a career as something that is not so easily lost. Take my counselors career choice for instance.


I wouldn't think his job would be viewed as a dead end job, would you? All in all, I really just don't want to be a burden anymore in my life to anyone else, is what this all boils down to. I have been a burden in some fashion or another to either a family member, or a friend's in the past. As I am a burden on one of my family members even now. Seeking a career in which I will be able to be independent is important to me, as I will be able to take care of myself without any outside influence from those around me. I just cant seem to find one where Im not going to be around people for long periods of time, or I can do within my ability to work



So, that is ultimately why I am here writing this lengthy post. If there is no options out there as a career or a vocation, can someone please tell me what one is to be able to fend for themselves with such an illness?


Thank you all for taking the time to read this very long post. I did attempt to make is much shorter. Hope you all have a wonderful day. Take care