Let me break down your post? You said so much!

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The more I get attached to my T,the sadder i get. I have no idea whats going on. I get so scared. I know she wont leave me. But i think I get sad because i know the more I get attached, the less I'll get from her.

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Why do you think you will receive less from the professional you are paying to help you, because you feel an attachment? Something inside you tells you that she WILL leave you if she knew. I think otherwise. If a T removes themself from such a process, then it is the T who is weak, not the patient You say you have no idea what is going on...it IS part and parcel of therapy work.

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I know if I get attached, she will have to set boundaries and hurt me.

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Your T already has boundaries firmly in place I'll bet. What part of her having boundaries will "hurt" you? You already feel unsure about your feelings. Let her help you identify them, not feel so confused about them, and progress further in the therapy process?

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The more I get attached, the more I ache for more than a therapeutic relationship with her.. with anyone,

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This is a common element in good therapy! Often it's a necessary one, before moving into more intense feelings. You're healing, and wish to have more...someone to be there with you...perhaps your aloneness is urging you into this feeling... perhaps it's the T's caring that you never experienced from anyone. It's the safeness of the relationship that is allowing you to even sense this, and think these thoughts imo.

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and i know i cant have it.

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With anyone? Why not try using the good relationship you have with the T to help you create good relationships with other ppl also? A good T models behavior for you to experience real life emotions, and learn real life skills.

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she represents another inaccessible person for me

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Of course your T is accessible to you... consider what you are withholding from her first.

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and i hate needing her.

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This is the crux of the whole post, imo. It is a normal emotion. None of us wish to have the relationship of a patient-therapist in the realm in which it exisits. We want to have that person as a friend, and not need therapy at all!

Please share your current feelings with your T. As I said, it is a normal element of progress within the therapeutic relationship. DOn't be afraid of how you are feeling towards her, but discuss it. Wouldn't you be happy to do that, have her know, and allow her to help you work through it and learn to find that aspect in your life that you can act upon? That's therapy.

Your T won't be surprised at your feelings at all. She might very well be able to put you at ease with them, and at least understand them. Good wishes!