..remember how I wanted to change my name?

well somehow in amongst that it did get changed...

I am still confused but I figured it out...

the spelling got changed?....what the?....F?

cos I could not 'log in' ...anymore like I always could and I went bad thinkin' I was rejected by this place and it's all borderline from there...

and messy ....this kind of confusion can kill a person so emotionally wrecked like me...

but ...clever me weirdo set up a second account a while back...and I know it's wrong....and it just sat around...and I asked for it to be removed...

and like all my requests they get ignored apart from accidental name changes??

and life is a faulty thing...I guess I am pleased I discovered what happened...and it was not possible without breaking the rules

..because I used my second account to access ME

it just blows me away how much I need to hold onto an identity...

I broke the rules here and I understand when I'm let go.....

I already broke loose anyway