I guess I'm not very smart. I keep trying to help on these boards. I want to help others cuz I can't stand that the way they are feeling is the same way that I feel. I wish that I was the only one who had to do this. But I'm not, and I'm trying to help. I really don't know how. I get so frustrated sometimes cuz I can't seem to help. I really suck at relationships in real life and apparently I suck at them on here too. ugh! I know that so many people have been here for me during my crisis's... but now... how do i be there for them?

I really don't have an identity. I work and I know how to be at work. I know how to be who I have to be at home. I get on here, and I'm trying to find who I shoud be on here to support others. I really don't have strong opinions about a lot of things so I just read the discussions and not participate. I guess I should join in. ugh... these are my frustrations.

I need to learn relationships i guess.
I'm trying to mend one now, cuz I said stupid things that I can't take back.

I could use some advice in this area.