When will I learn that depression dictates everything in my life? After 33 years of battles, I still don't remember the lessons that I have learned. I also, forget how to identify and prevent. I allow it to ruin things and sabotage others. The shadow of depression decides my relationships and how those are going to go. It stands between me and the things I want to do and the things I need to do! It prevents me from always being the person I am and turns me into the person who can't handle life- so FORGET the big stuff. It limits the skills that I have from solving problems of my own and often creates more for me. Depression takes me into a world that I don't want to be in. It causes more issues like anxiety and panic and anger. I have the knowledge to over-come and fight it, I just don't always have the strength. Someday's it is just easier to let it take over. The episode will last maybe for today, maybe for the week, but anytime is too much time! And when things are good, I feel it right there, waiting for the slightest issue to arise so it can drag me down. I am not a novice in dealing with this, but today I just feel lost and hopeless again. Does anyone else have the same issues? Is my case "normal"? Is there any strategy out there that may help me? Talking always helps, as long as it is with people who "get it" or rather in this case "has it". I do hope that you have a wonderful day and thanks in advance.