Just realized that I didn't connect a few dots with this. It probably doesn't make all that much sense!

The personal things in my life which have been causing me trouble, turning the other cheek and volunteering where it was putting me in a position where I was being mistreated, well these fit into the kindness/justice thing because I was being kind and not seeking justice for myself. My epiphany was that I needed to seek justice for myself. (Put a stop to the mistreatment and even stop the volunteering and stop turning the other cheek).

Also, when I said that people here might see Javier in me, I was thinking that if they were triggered, which most likely is an abusive situation where justice is needed, that they might see me as that abuser somehow, and then, therefore, want to seek justice on me.