<font color="green"> Hello Confused,

It is great to hear that you have a therapist who spedializes in DID. It can be a tricky subject, as you've personally learned over the last week, and should be tackled by someone who is a specialist, in my opinion.

I've been diagnosed for two years. I thought what I was going through was normal to everyone but learned it wasn't.

Have you told your therapist about the SI and the S** note with the pills you found? I have an alter that feels much the same way and they are able to communicate with my therapist via e-mail and phone calls instead of doing the permanent thing.

It is hard at first and very difficult to accept the diagnosis, at least that's how I felt. In fact, it took me over a year. It's confusing and scary and upsetting. But, it does get better. The best thing I found was journaling, each alter being able to write their feelings so they didn't keep internalizing - but talk to your therapist about it. You might not be ready. I also found being as honest and open with my therapist, no matter how hard, was the best course because then they were better able to help me through the tough parts, which still happen. But they are there and we are here for support.

You are not alone.

Anne </font>