Kate, I am sorry that you are not able to talk to your therapist. I use to be that way too, and some days I still am. I would go in therapy with all the confidence in the world to talk that day and as soon as I would get there I would loose ever last bit of it. Therapy isn't easy at all and it's going to be hard work, but if you hang in there and find a new therapist maybe things will get better for you soon. *hugs*