I used to smoke fairly heavily, although my fiance and I quit together about two months ago.

I won't lie - this sucks, and I miss it terribly, especially when I'm horribly stressed. Like now - we're moving, we quit smoking, my fiance may have skin cancer (melanoma....) and we'll find out today and a coworker bilked me out of $900 so I have to take him to court although I think he's probably disappeared off the face of the earth and my sister's fiance just got the snot beat out of him for accidentally bumping into someone at a festival at my sister's college.

Yeah, quitting sucks. Not only that, there's the people that are actually angry at us for quitting because it's another two smokers from their group gone.

I'm never going back, and I feel much more healthy, but mentally I'm a horrible wreck.

So yeah, the cigs definitely helped keep me calm. Trust me when I say that I know you have to replace smoking with another thing to keep you occupied, but I've tried them all from gum to crocheting and I'm still having these horrible cravings.

some of it's magic
some of it's tragic
but i had a good life all the way......
~jimmy buffett