Sorry to hear you were treated so bad in the past. I felt the same at one point after 3 different Ts told me I was gonna just have to learn to live with it. After almost all hope was gone I found a lady who did EMDR on Houston that has truly saved my life. Things still trigger me to this day but seeing her helps me, but I understand if you don't want to go through that Again. My t taught me to live in the moment and not the past. Close your eyes and feel what's bothering you like a chest pain or tightness concentrate on that and then take deep breathes and you can wiggle your toes or move both hands while doing this to. Always helps me if you wanna try but you should really find a good T