Oh, great. I think I'm headed toward something.

I was racing around to several different stores this evening, looking for a certain product.

These stores all had the product in stock, but they didn't have the version that I was looking for. The versions are very close. Subtle differences to most people, but to me one is fabulous and the other is unacceptable.

I've been going through this for about 2 weeks now, looking for this item. It's a consumable item, and I'm a little obsessed right now, so I am constantly looking for them.

Stores are often out of stock. I've tried calling some of these stores to see if they are in stock yet, and I have been told yes.

So I go to the stores and see that they are the wrong kind.

Tonight I was so mad. My mind was racing. I was slamming carts and other merchandise around. I was yelling at store employees. I was showing them their product and asking why they didn't have the right ones when I had driven clear over there just to buy them.

I was the crazy lady screaming in the store.

I haven't felt like this for a long time.

When it used to hit me, I would rev the engine of my vehicle and drive like a maniac. Or scream at my kid (when he was smaller) about whatever made me mad, he'd cover his ears and cry, I'd slam the brakes, then peel out again.

In fact, when I look back at my childhood and teen years, I felt this way a lot and family just thought I was moody, *****y, PMSing, etc.

I'm still taking the same dosage of Welbutrin that I've been on for several months (100 mg SR twice a day).

I have an appointment with pdoc for late February. Since I no longer have insurance, I can't just stroll in there and plop down a $25 co-pay like I used to.

But I'm wondering if this is a sign.