i do promise that if things get too bad i will talk to counselor. i also am planning to see my teacher Tues. and i might bring up the SI if i see or email him. he already knows i have been doing it off and on for over a year. i really trust him and he has never told my parents when i talked about my SI. so i think talking to him is all the help i need.

thank you all sooo much for the kind words and support. it is really helpful to have a community to talk to.

-- Sam