I have had IED for as long as me and my doctors can remmber.. problem is No matter what medicines I have tried.. NOTHING worked

it either made me worse so that my temper was totally uncontrolable or it made me half a zombie and crying all the time. I feel like my IED is getting worse as I age and I am tired of busting my own things everytime someone gets me angry... even on the computer if someone says something that I later think is not worth getting all that upset over and have had to replace something I broke or ruined. Or I scream at my poor mother and niece, later regret it and cry myself to sleep. is there NO hope for IED? In therapy now but it's still bad.. like a firecracker waiting to explode