(((MikeyM)))

Not sure if I can offer much, or what i may offer is really helpful to you.

These are your friends, they do "playing around" with joking and put downs, disrespecting comments it sounds like........

Guess first, need to state that a True Friend to me is someone that cares about me, about my emotions, if I have been hurt and cares about my well being.... as I do with them.

At any rate, if these are True Friends- If you are Bothered By What They do, and it is tearing you up inside, and helping to fuel these negative thoughts--- Then it should be ok to share that with them, maybe tone it down a bit.......

If they are not True Friends, and if you told them and it is suspected that they would just haze you more---- I think you need to think of your self, and what your needs are and what you need to do to better your life.

I don't want to go into a whole boring story of me-- but really the people and environment you are around, can really help lift your thoughts to a more positve, and feel better about yourself as well; or they can help crush what good you do see inside and help really lead down a dark path within.

Constantly being dragged through the mud by others, and then you too doing the same, due to "that's just how it is"-- I hope a little part of you realizes, it does not have to be that way. It is a choice to do that.

And if you are doing things that make you feel bad (like if you don't get a kick out of putting people down)--- Please think of that.... It is not really healthy for one's self to just go with what the crowd does if it does not seem true to your own soul.

"Re-examine all that you have been told... dismiss that which insults your soul. Walt Whitman"

It sounds like a big group too-- perhaps, if some are true friends or enlighten of their actions and behaviors enough to take care of what they are doing to their friend (you), just hang out with those friends.



I wish you well-- sorry for the ramble,