I made an attempt to look it up ...the IED

the first thing that came up was "improvised explosive device"

seems you have unique skills maybe a perfectly overblown perception and this world is just way too fragile for you.

I live alone because I have a seriously terrible temper and otherwise I'm a mouse!...like WTF?

I like to change the abbreviates!...IED

"inventive emotional disaster"

I smashed my bed last night...instead of laying into it as usual I really 'layed' into it!