When I am all f'd up after talking to my t it usually means that I pried open a window. That I am closer to what makes us tick. I don't remember much of my child hood. I have fixed memories that I have had for years but never new ones. These memories are like a mantra. When my friends are talking about their childhood memories (good memories) I have a set amount of these good memories. They are real but I they are the only things that I remember. I have bad memories but I have drained them of all emotion so I sound like an observer when I tell them. When I talk in session it sometimes jars memories that cause me to switch or hide. Sometimes it is days later before I feel back to "normal". It sometimes take a week before I agree to go back to session. This stirring up of my memories is painful and scary but if I want to move past what happened I believe I need to remember. I just have spent sooooo many years protecting myself from remembering. I would say continue to let your t know how you feel about the sessions and let him know that sometimes you may just want to talk about the weather. That every session doesn't have to be about my past. That helped me with continuing with my therapy. I hope you feel better. And your t sounds like he understands DID and that's a good thing.