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I did hurt my therapist, badly I think. I didn't know it at the time. I never would have said what I said if I had known it would hurt her. And I am so much better off for having been me, than avoiding certain topics, or censoring myself, because she couldn't handle it. She's being paid to handle it - and either she gets her own supervision to help her, or I leave, or she leaves me - and although painful, any of those options is probably a good thing. I can make different decisions about how to say things, but I can't become someone else and constantly be worried I might say something that hurts her when I am feeling no ill-will towards her and trying to sort out my chaos.
I can imagine you might be in real turmoil over this. IT's hard to think about dealing with my deepest warts and they not being acceptable. or handable. I imagine it's very scary.
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