i don't think needing to go to the hospital is soo bad, it's like taking time out to get help when you need it. Right now i am so sick with the flu i feel like going to the hospital, but people don't get to go in the hospital just for the flu. to me it sounds like you need the hospital maybe for a short rest and to get your head together. That doesn't mean you're helpless just because you go to the hospital either, you just need some encouragement, i hope you do well and have a good day,