I struggle with the feeling I'm going to contaminate people if I tell them things about me. I tend to only discuss certain things with people AFTER they have indicated they have experienced something similar. There were things that took me what felt like forever to discuss with my T for that reason. And then after we discussed them, he reassured me he was not contaminated and he had heard worse. It's hard to trust, but the healing happens from getting the stuff out there and looking at it without someone who is at least a bit impartial and help you see that whatever it is, it is not something that makes YOU disgusting.