I have wanted to go to the hospital for a while. Especially after a break down. I feel dangerous and unstable. Like you could just look at me and I would fall over. It makes it even harder when my mom starts crying over something. And then I feel guilty for wanting to ask for help... And I REALLY feel bad when we struggle finically, because a trip to the hospital and most likely meds, would be expensive. And somedays we can barely afford basic necessities.

I'm so beaten and broken. (Sometimes literally)