beauflow,

That was definitely NOT a ramble...I found it to be concise. Thank you. I think you nailed it with the Whitman quote. There are many times where my heart/soul/emotions whatever you wanna call it just aches at some of the things they say. I know I should accept everyone for who they are but does that mean I must tolerate them or anyone for that matter?

And you're right - they are a big group of people and there are a few, maybe only two, that I consider true friends that I can go to for anything; and I will always continue to be there for them no matter what. I know I must leave this group for the sake of my sanity but I want to do it with a clear mind...absent of resentment, judgement, and anger. That way I can at least be confident and assured that I made the best decision for myself and others.

If there are any words or direction that you or anyone else can provide that will help me towards gaining clarity...I would greatly appreciate it.

Thanks again