Hi.. I know it is scary and painful to be having the memories and not knowing what to expect or how to react...and it doesn't feel like it could possibly be real.. but the memories start coming when the time is right to heal.

I have only flashes of what my childhood was like, I stuffed it all so deep s for so many years, that I have more I don't know than what I do know.I have found that the life I thought I had was really just a mask my family put on for the world to see.. so the secrets wouldn't be revealed.So the memories come and I have to sort out what is real and not real.This may well happen to you as well.

I agree that memories ,although emotionally painful, they cannot hurt you ... you forgot as a coping skill.. now you can remember as a way to heal so you can take control of your life.Let them come.. I am sure your therapist can give you some visualization techniques to help you through the anxiety of having the flashbacks...

And you must allow yourself to rest..when memories come,it can cause complete exhaustion and you need to take care of yourself so you can keep working on healing... just be easy with yourself.

Peace.. Faith