I dated this girl for just under a year. Our circumstances were not ideal (she was dealing with being a new mom, and father did not want to be a part of her sons life), and I traveled quite a bit. I knew she had hangups of being hurt a lot, but despite the red flags we fell in love. Talked about a future, and it was finally the girl I wanted to marry as long as her hang ups were solved. I am a fixer. I love and care VERY deeply, and am very selfless to ones I love. I was the first guy that ever cared for her this much and she said I was the best thing that ever happpened to her. I fell in love her son, who didnt have a father, and loved him like he my own. She cheated on me at the height of our relationship early on, and I forgave her and made excuses for her. I knew she loved me, but never understood why she sabotaged my trust. Well fast forward 5 months later we still were together and her actions just didnt meet her words. She became aloof and distant, while stating she loved me more than any guy ever but was just very scared. The more distant she became the more I wanted to hang on and fix it. I lost myself along the way and it tore me down emotionally. She ultimately kept me around til she met someone else and let me go. This is the girl who told everyone she thought I was the one, and that she wanted to start a family together just 5 weeks prior to this. I pushed her away when I became depressed and frustrated, and had so self control.

I am now on 2 medications. Depression and anxiety that I have never felt. I still to this day (3 months) have no desire to be with another women, yet I am very lonely. I keep thinking that she will work through her issues and we can work it out when we are in better places, She is already with another guy and moved right into another relationships while leaving me in shambles. to suffer.

I love her and hate her at the same time, yet care for them greatly.