I know this is easier said then done, but it seems to me that the best thing you can possibly do is to unload on your therapist. You mentioned that you have had some relationships end because of your need to unload, and this is one of the reasons that you have your therapist there...so that she can take that load, so that she can help bear it. Then, you don't have to overburden family or friends. I know that for me, this was the biggest saving grace. One of the reasons that I became so depressed and anxious was because I was so worried about unloading on friends and family and scaring them away. After I started with my current therapist, it took me a looong time to even fully unload on her. I am a perfectionist by nature and am overly concerned with what others think of me and how they perceive me. So, it is SUPER hard for me to turn that off in therapy, and my therapist has to constantly remind me of this ("Content, don't worry about what I think. Content, I'm not here to judge you. Content, I am here to listen and help you work through your problems," etc.). Anyway, for me, the most relieving thing was when I finally started to stop worrying about my therapist...how she would feel and what she would think...and started to allow her help set me free and share my burdens. There was no easy way to do this; I just had to jump in...both feet...in over my head.

So, here's to hoping that you can jump in with both feet in over your head in your next session. I really hope that you do...please do.... In the end, you will feel so much better if you can do this (like a pressure valve releasing the steam). Best of luck to you! Please let us know if you are able to share more with her (your T) in your next visit.