Dear T,

Bi Weekly sessions are not enough, yet weekly is too frequent and I wouldn't be able to afford that anyway. So where the hell is the medium? Why can't I just be satisfied that I am able to get in there at all? There are many people in my situation who would not be able to come ever. So, why can't I just take what I can get, accept it, and be happy? I know why. Because I miss you between sessions even though you allow me to reach out as needed. Because my weekly sessions were ripped out from underneath me before I was ready to go bi-weekly because of H losing his job. I hate that I didn't have a choice because of these circumstances. I would probably feel better about these bi-weekly session if I changed it because I wanted to, not because I had to. I hate that I need to see you. I hate that I struggle between these sessions. Most of all, I'm selfish. like I said I should be able to just take what I can get and be happy, but no. I'm selfish. I want more and I hate me for that.