You might want to consider it. I'm not telling you what to do or anything. Let me tell you what happened to me and where I am now 20+ years later.

I was raped repeatedly by my boyfriend every weekend and some times durring the week to for 9 months. After I broke things off w/ him he stalked me for 3 months. He also attempted suicide or at least told me he did numerus times.

I never told anyone. Not my mom or dad, teachers, friends, I even had a school concealer, I didn't tell her either. I though I could pretend it didn't happen. It worked out great. I put that thought right in the back of my head. I never gave it another thought. (I thought) But it grew, and strained and festered. Then 5 years later I got married. My H thought it was odd that I didn't act very touchy feely, but chucked it up to newly married. 18 years later I am in counceling and have been for about 8 mo. Only here in the past 3 months has the things that happened come to light. The rape has affected my married relationship and every relationship I had before my Husband. It affects how I behave in stores when I see a man, how I am on vacation and riding elevators w/ a man. I had no idea how the littlest things would be affected and how I lived w/ them for so long before knowing it was from the rape. If I would have said something, I would not be in the situation I am in now, which is on the verge of divorce, because I can't relate and don't like to be touched, hugged, hold hands none of that stuff.

I got the T (therepy) I needed. The T never said anything about pressing charges, going after this man, that I was to blame, she never tried to get me to do anything like that that I didn't want to do.

Did you know you can reverse the affects that rape and other trauma's have on your brain. It causes you to freak so badly and causes such stress that it can change how your brain develops. That is what happened to me. I am working to change that. It is hard to reverse what your brain thinks. Those brains are powerful things.

Just sayin. If you don't know you can't make a educated choice. I hope this has helped. I can't say go get T. I didn't right away and I know why. I do understand. Keep talking here at PC. It gives you a voice and people here care. I care.