Isn't it amazing how we look for forgiveness from other people but can't forgive ourselves?! Speaking for myself, I have disappointed myself more than once. I think the key is understanding why you broke your own rules. Once you know why, it's easier to see yourself as human and work towards forgiving yourself. No one is perfect, trust me I spent a great portion of my life trying to be - to no avail. But I can look at the mistakes I've made and understand why I made them. I have spent many an hour "getting to know me" and understanding my motivations. Why don't you give yourself a break and join the ranks of us "less than perfect" people?!

Whatever it is, whatever line you crossed, you have to get to the why. If you know who you want to be, you can be that person. But you have to accept the past my friend. What's done is done and you can't change it. For me, the best way to atone is to try to be the best person I can be every day. I may not be perfect, but I know my heart is in the right place.

I'm sending you hugs!