I think I'm a great person. I think I'm funny, nice, and caring. So, why do people seem to meet me and decide they don't like me and sabotage me? I mean, really? Its happened more than once. Its it a case of "its them not you"? I realize its just something to move on from, but when it happens more than once, what gives?
Two examples from recent times....
Okay. So, starting from current and backing up, I just got over influenza. Last weekend, I went bowling with friends on Saturday evening and they invited me over for the next morning to play cards and hang out. So I did. I felt fine, but as the day wore on, I felt cold and kept having cup after cup of hot tea. My belly hurt and I didn't want any food. I kept shivering as they afternoon turned to early evening. My friend said it was just cold. I eventually went home around 7 p.m., and took my temperature around 8, and it was 102.4! I called the dr. the next day and went to the ER the next evening for chest pain: Diagnosis: Influenza. So I just stayed in bed watching dvds and resting with lots of liquids. But now my friend I saw over the weekend is kind of avoiding me. I called her the night I was there (Sunday) and told her I had a fever and she brushed it off saying it was okay and they'd just take more vitamin C. Okay so she never said she doesn't LIKE me, as we ARE friends, but I get the feeling she's not too happy with me as she just signed out of facebook chat without saying goodbye twice now and won't give me a clear answer on how everybody is. I just want to make sure I didn't get everybody sick.
Second thing... I had a job I started two weeks ago this coming Tuesday. It was cleaning houses. I showed up with bells on. I never met the boss. I only talked with her on the phone. She called me at 10 p.m. Monday night to tell me where to show up. (Private houses) So I had already bought shoes and socks and pants for the job. And there I was got up early and showed up way earlier than I'd normally get up ready to go at a stranger's house in a strange part of town and walked into the house. These two girls in their early 20s were upstairs and said hi and got me to sweeping the bedrooms. Then they got me to scrubbing the baseboards in the entire downstairs and then the windows and the window sills. I worked my *** off! It hurt my knees something terrible, but I went above and beyond. After a few hours, we were done with that house, so we moved to house 2 of 3. Same thing. When I finished a job, we I asked them what to do next. I made beds, nicely, with corners turned down for the children, and everything. One of the clients came home to give them a check and I said hello to him and was polite in that. After that house was done, one of the girls told me, "The third house cancelled. You can go home now. You work again Thursday. I thought it sounded fishy, but what was I supposed to do? I didn't know where house 3 was, anyway. So I left. That night, the boss texted me and asked me what I thought. She had previously said it was going to be hard work. So I said, "It was about what I thought." Which it was. Hard, but do-able. I never heard from the boss all Tuesday or Wednesday about when or where to work Thursday. I left her a text and a voicemail asking. Thursday came and I got up early and went to Starbucks and waited until 7:30 and called just in case- all dressed for work- no answer. And I texted her Friday. Nothing. Just completely shut out. I don't know what those girls told her that day I was there, but doesn't that sound rediculous? What the **** did I do? I went where I was told, worked my *** off, and I get shut out? I didn't say much to do those girls except ask what to do next, either. I think they just didn't like me, lied to the boss about me, and that was that. Thoughts? I can't even get ahold of her to get paid for that day. I know the person that is across the hall from her office and he says she hasn't been in that he's seen since.
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