I started getting disability last January. I only had to try once also, which makes me think, "I must be really bad." But, I am not able to work on a consistent basis, and not in the line of work that I have my degree in.
They only are covering me until next March, then they will review it. I am worried about that. I am hoping that , since by then I still won't have been a year out of the hospital, that they will reapprove me.
I know the guilty feelings, that, at least physically I don't seem disabled. It's hard when it is based on a mental condition. Right now my T says that my "job" is being a mom and wife. I'm trying to use the energy that I have to be that. My children have suffered from the hospitalizations and days in bed, so they deserve it when I can give them attention. So, that's what I'm focusing on right now.