Oh guy
I know how you feel.

Im diagnosed w/ depression but I think I have BPD but am a year too young to be diagnosed.
Im always lonely and I never have anyone to talk to, and like you, I want someone who will always be there for me when I need them.

Im learning that its hard to find that person, becuase hell- it seems only YOU can be there for yourself.
Sometimes when I feel like absolute ****, I just go crazy and try to enjoy myself. I dance alone, shout out loud, do whatever the hell I want.

And hell YOU ARE RIGHT! F the world! Its such a joke how we live today and how idiotic many people are. But I count myself lucky to be another one of those people who can find the faults and are willing to change them.

The first way to find a friend is to be your own friend. Make yourself laugh. Give yourself a break or something give yourself a gift.

I hope this gives you some encouragement. You are fighting the good fight and helping yourself.

*Air Hug*