Have you thought of getting another man? Someone who is willing to enjoy sex with you on his own initiative, without your begging him? Someone enthusiastic about you? Your looks are what they are and do not worry about them, just smile. If all men cared about were taut skin and good muscle tone, then twenty year olds would maintain long long waiting lists of men wishing to become their lovers and forty, fifty etc year old women would stay home alone. But what do we observe in reality that surrounds us? That women of all ages have intimate partners. What conclusion do we draw from this observation? That men and at least a good many of them are not fixated on taut skin and good muscle tone.

Do you somehow need being begging for sexual satisfaction? Or is it a very unfortunate situation that you have to beg?

Did he say disparaging things about your figure or is it all self talk?

Yoga is a good idea but for pleasure, flexibility, mental clarity, rather than changing the way your body looks. You have probably heard about the acronym SMART for goals. A stands for attainable. Is changing the way your body looks always attainable? No, the body may not obey. It is out of your control. This is true of everybody. With your disease, it is even more true. So I agree that you should accept your body and not expect it to change. But please use Retin A on your face as every woman should. It costs less than ten dollars a month and delivers great results. And smile and you will be ok. If you cannot smile because of the depression, treat the underlying depression.