Thanks ray.

I dont know today the 27th is our 23rd month. Together... though we have been apart for 3 weeks. I feel ok i just got some info about her. Shes doing ok... i myself might go to the er.... im tired of the abuse im putting myself though. Im scared to go back to god. I miss my cathy. I love her more then myself. But i might be better today. Im going to try to be happy. Without booze or without abusing myself. For the next 24 hours. Im going to bed right now.

Thank you all. I will keep you posted.