there is no question that my former teacher Mr.A has been the most influential person in my life for two years. about a month ago i went and talked to him. he is aware that i am/was a cutter and we have talked about it before and he even saw me scratch my cuts until they bled at a soccer practice. so it was okay that during the last conversation he asked if i had "self-inflicted" and i told him yes. then we talked about why i do it. he understands me and is open to talking about mental stuff and SI.

i am planning on seeing him after school on Tues if he's there. and the thing i am struggling with is whether to bring up my recent SI and that no one is even aware that i am doing it. i know he won't tell my parents... but i don't wat to push the limit on what he'll keep a secret. i am also kind of wanting to cut my arms so that he'll see them and really believe i am doing it. as of now i cut on my stomach so then no one knows.... except for Mr. A if/when i tell him. feel like he won't think that i am doing is as much if he can't see the wounds on my arms.

this might also be the last time i see him face-to-face and i'm worried that i might cut more because of that fact and i might become depressed because of it.

what should i do? any thoughts?

-- Sam