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Originally Posted by hiding_in_my_room
I wish i could believe that it could be okay to be angry, and even tell a stranger or a coworker what i really thought, instead of cowering away and being that super agreeable, non confrontational doormat i end up being, leaving me enraged at myself.
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I know what you mean. It feels so risky to share anger with other people. My worst case scenario is people ending their relationships with me based on my expression of anger. This is not altogether unreasonable--I saw one of my parents end relationships with friends based on anger, so I think I internalized that--I've never EVER expressed anger towards my parents even though they permitted my abuse. I always fall into the role of "They must be right/I don't have a right to be angry." Intellectually, I know that's not true, but emotionally? I totally buy into it.