I feel that my problem is within myself. I get my self esteam up and get my self confidence up all week long. That is my main goal for the whole week. Then I go to therapy and I loose every last bit of it. I have been hurt too many times before from sharing my past with others and I don't want it to happen again. I feel that she will be just like everyone else, believing me up to a certain point and then all of a suddend it gets to be too much to believe. I have had a ton of things in my life that weren't very plesant and I do understand that it may get overwhelming for someone to believe all of it. That's why I have learned to not tell everything. I keep parts of it back. But I need to talk about them because they too are just as important as everything else that has happened to me. Every last peice of it makes up for who I am today. I don't think that a different therapist is going to make a difference. I have to have time to condition myself and prepare myself to do therapy at a later time in my life. I just feel that I'm not ready to share with her about me. I really want to but I'm not ready to.