I have gotten off to a bad start today. I am going to go to the gym and do some bike riding. After that, I don't know. I need to do some writing. And pay bills. And ironing. And cleaning and cooking. But, I am stuck. I hate my life so much that motivation is a problem. I continue to have sexual issues. I hate my orientation but it's not changeable. Religion is full of lies and is of no comfort. Therapists don't know what to tell me anymore. There are no cures or solutions.