I am afraid to add to what's in my head. I keep thinking that if I start building stuff I will make everyone too comfortable and no one will want to come back in. I want the stuff in my head to be temperory. I don't want anyone to be in a bad situation but I am uncomfortable with creating a pretend world. It make me feel that I will get lost in it and never leave. My t has suggested that I let my little ones play oI don't do that either. Nothing is safe, no one plays. I am upset over the idea that I can creat things out of no where. If this is possible than what is real. Is it all just pretend. I'm not pretend. I'm afraid.