Hi I'm Bailey.

I've been in a relationship for 1 1/2 - 2 years. Right now we're struggling because of me. I like to be in control, I have trust issues, and a low confidence.

I know where all this comes from. I know what triggers my emotions and when I become irrational. I understand that all this is from my past and my boyfriend has nothing to do with it, but I cannot seem to stop the irrational thoughts. They slip out of my mouth sometimes. I want to express myself, but I know nothing good comes out of it because it's only me. I need to learn to trust and love myself.

We're to the point where he just glares at me when I say something negative. Sometimes even positive. I almost feel like we're on our last leg.

So here I am, at his place. Same room. No talking. I'm on this forum, he's on his computer.

When I leave tonight I want him give him some room and let him come to me when he's ready. I need to focus on myself and I want him to want me.

I need some feed back and advice please.
Thank you.