warning their is a lot of trigger in hear related to childhood sexual abuse so please dont read iffen u cant handel it rite now.....................

so like we haave some freinds who have an 11 year old boy that we watch every once in a while. he usually come over for the week end. well last time he come over for the weekend beads let him use her computer he said he was going to play games on it. and every time i looked over his shoulder he was. but after when he left to go home beads went to get on puter and found a bunch of child porn on it. so this child was hear today and i quesstioned him about it. he said yes he had been looking at it.
beads explained to him that most of them girls is being forcced to do that stuff.....and that it is quite tragic and traumatic for them...........then we went on to explain to him why it struck such a nerve with beads. we told him about being kidnapped and gangraped by 8 men at the age of 13. we told him how our dad used to rape us and pass us around to hi freinds to have their way with us to......we told him when we was quite a bit younger then he is now. anyway s we thing he got the message.......he asked us iffen we was all rite and we telled him yes. but of coursse beads is anything but all rite..........we feel so horrible adn filthy liek a peice of meat all over again...................just ncant seem to shaek it..................and also wonderign if we did teh right thing or not.........most likely not we usually screw up we prolly did again..........we just wanted him to know how terribel that stuff is ya know.......and now we feel worst then terribel......................