so i got back together with my ex, i saw the whole first day of us together again, it was wonderful. so at one point we were walking somewhere and we stopped under a church's tower. We were looking up to the tower and speaking about how high is it and we saw some people there. as we turned to walk forth a guy just fall from the tower and hit us. we were lying on the floor. on my right side there was the dead guy, splashed. i checked myself, i was okay. i looked on my left and i saw my girlfriend, she was dead as well. here head was separated from her body. i tried to put it back, it was disgusting and inefficient. i felt myself guilty somehow and though i knew everybody saw what happened i tried to behave naturally, like nothing happened. i went so far that i responded to someone's speaking with a joke and i laughed. and that point i knew i don't care about her, im just glad im okay.
do we feel and act differently in dreams or im just a jerk or i just dont love her or i just cant love anyone else in the world as myself?