You are very brave, though you may not feel it right now. I applaud your courage in sharing what you have here. It's hard to face the abuse and very hard to admit to the undeserved self-blame that so many of us feel.

I agree with Harley, it was not your fault. You were only a child. You were silenced by your fear and your pain. A child can't control that.

I have walked in your shoes. I blamed myself for years and years for the abuse I suffered as a child. I didn't deserve to do that to myself. The fault is with the abuser, not the survivor. You did nothing wrong. You were just vulnerable, as any child is. Someone abused their power to take advantage of that and they hurt you. That was very, very wrong, but certainly not your fault.

Take good care of you. You deserve to heal.

Peace,

mtd